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[sugarcube]

I didn't mean sober like continuously sober, I mean at the moment. Because I was not drunk then started drinking. I know it's not the best thing but it's my current coping mechanism for fucking up my lovebof my life/brother/etc etc. I'm not an alcoholic it's just temporary

 

[sugarcube]

Damn, the circumstances of his death a tragic.

Yes horribly sad at only 20 years old. I can't imagine how his family is. Do you remember yourself at 20? My life was just starting to be fun

 

[Frood]

I do. I was just discovering depression. It was a good time

 

[sugarcube]

I'm sorry. Why then? What triggered it? Did anything help? At least you were later to the party. I was in HS. my 20s were fun though. I partied and had fun and was finally free. 20-24 ish I was the happiest I'd ever been

 

[Frood]

Who knows, I'm not here to introspect

 

[sugarcube]

Alright the movie was good but it still made me cry. I'm not sure if I'm really a musical person though. I like music and singing but not sure if I like both.


Ahhh right burning question of the day. Why are all the sad songs from the South about whiskey. Chasing You, Drowns the Whiskey, whiskey Glasses, there is also a song called straight up Jack Daniels . I don't fucking get it there is so much better alcohol to drink.

 

[Frood]

I didn't mean sober like continuously sober, I mean at the moment. Because I was not drunk then started drinking. I know it's not the best thing but it's my current coping mechanism for fucking up my lovebof my life/brother/etc etc. I'm not an alcoholic it's just temporary

Just be careful. I'm sure every alcoholic thinks it's temporary at first

 

[Frood]

Alright the movie was good but it still made me cry. I'm not sure if I'm really a musical person though. I like music and singing but not sure if I like both.


Ahhh right burning question of the day. Why are all the sad songs from the South about whiskey. Chasing You, Drowns the Whiskey, whiskey Glasses, there is also a song called straight up Jack Daniels . I don't fucking get it there is so much better alcohol to drink.

Because if you made a sad don't about tequila it would sound silly, because tequila is associated with fun. Different boozes have their difference associations, and if you want to tap into those associations in a song, it's an easy way to do it by just mentioning whiskey.

 

[sugarcube]

Just be careful. I'm sure every alcoholic thinks it's temporary at first

Thanks that's kind of you. I know I can control it I just don't want to. I'm at the point I just don't give a fuck anymore either. The peak of my happiness has sailed And I was the one who fucked it up but other things currently were beyond my control. I'm always trying to chase that serotonin high though. I'm so jealous of people who can naturally produce that shit

 

[sugarcube]

There are sad songs about Tequila. I don't know the artist but I hear it on the radio. When I taste Tequila, baby I still see ya blah blah. No one fucking sings about Gin.

 

[sugarcube]

Also I know you're def not a racist now if you recommended a song with brown people singinh the whole time

 

[Frood]

Snoop Dogg did.

 

[ennaynattirb]

With his mind on his money and his money on his mind.

Thanks that's kind of you. I know I can control it I just don't want to. I'm at the point I just don't give a fuck anymore either. The peak of my happiness has sailed And I was the one who fucked it up but other things currently were beyond my control. I'm always trying to chase that serotonin high though. I'm so jealous of people who can naturally produce that shit

Hi, my name is ennaynattirb, and I'm on two medications that help me make serotonin.

It's really been a big help, I avoided it for a long time but glad I finally accepted that I needed something.

 

[sugarcube]

With his mind on his money and his money on his mind.



Hi, my name is ennaynattirb, and I'm on two medications that help me make serotonin.

It's really been a big help, I avoided it for a long time but glad I finally accepted that I needed something.

I'm such as idiot. I can't believe I forgot that song. I love that damn song and know all the words.
Thank you. I have never tried two at the same time but I've even tried Lithium and it didn't do shit except kill my sex drive, like literally no interest in anything and also made me have to get my blood drawn somewhat regularly which was a pain in my ass. I'm horrified of the weight gain and libido crusher so I probably haven't been the most open minded on medications

 

[ennaynattirb]

It can take a while to find the right one, and even then, it's not a guarantee that you will. They can do the opposite for some people, and getting off of them is hard. It's one of those "does the risk outweigh the benefit" situations that you really have to keep an eye on. For me, my husband was incredibly concerned that I would unalive myself and I promised him I would at least try drugs. Just had another dose increase of the main one and other than my dad being in the hospital and freaking out about that, I seem to be improving my overall sense of wellbeing.

 

[Frood]

I never got weight gain from any of the... Idk 8 meds iv tried? About half of them hit my libido. Current one has a minor effect on libido, but it's not gone entirely and I'm single so who cares

 

[ennaynattirb]

Mine made me suuuuuper tired for the first couple months but that did go away. The depression is actually what crushed my sex drive in the first place, so that didn't hurt anything for me. I'm like spiking right now in that department so there's that lol.

I have gained a ton of weight, but there are a lot of factors attributing to that. I don't physically do a lot outside of like general housekeeping maintenance stuff and errands right now so it's not surprising.

 

[sugarcube]

I'm. Not suicidal I'm just generally unhappy and bored with everything. Likr there isn't much joy? I would never hurt myself. I just want to be excited about something.

Evertime i switch or up a dose i gain 5 lbs. It's not bad because I'm. Not huge to begin with but then i don't feel like myself and feel gross with myself. Doesn't really help my mood. Then i have to diet and crap.

Zoloft kills the fuck out of my libido. Like no interest at all.II took lithium when I was with my ex and it made me feel numb and really damaged the libido but I think being with someone who I was in Harmonyb with was the only saving grace. You can be single and still want a libido. People have fuck buddies or just don't want to feel numb

 

[Frood]

"I'm. Not suicidal I'm just generally unhappy and bored with everything. Likr there isn't much joy? I would never hurt myself. I just want to be excited about something. "

I feel that. As long as there's no stress on top of that I can handle it. but once there's stress...

 

[sugarcube]

But once there is stress then what?

For me I just feel melancholy. The only time I don't or haven't felt / feel this way is when I either exercise a lot to the point my BMI is so low I lose my period; not healthy. But then I'm just on endorphin high so much it's crack. Or when I was with my ex, then I felt I had a purpose.. like I was seen, understood, in sync. Everything was easy. Or literally when I'm working... I can't be idle. Idle hands are the devil's playground. I need to work in the highly stressful environment I do it makes me feel competitive and like I have something to do. The problem is sometimes I get too feedeep into it and thenni don't slewp and basically go into mania